a new beginning and a big idea

I’m not sure if that title is redundant or not… aren’t all beginnings “new”?

Hmm. Let’s put a pin in that and get back to it later.

In the meantime, thanks for taking the time to read this thing.

I’m not sure exactly what I’ll be using this for, but hopefully it’ll be worth your time if you ever keep up on it.

If you know me, or if you know me via Facebook, you’ll know that I like to both talk a lot, and write a lot.

I don’t even think anyone reads blogs anymore (I guess they remind me of the early 2000’s, if anything), but I’ve become more and more irritated at how difficult it is to find anything I’ve written on my Facebook profile over time. It just feels like such a fleeting and temporary outlet, where people can read it and send a “like”, and then it’s left to be buried by new content and cat videos and the like…

So, here we are – or, here I am, sitting in a Starbucks working on my laptop like some silly yuppie, writing a blog.

This isn’t why I came here though.

I actually had a purpose when I left the house today – I was going to come to Starbucks, get a coffee, put my headphones on, and get to work on something I’m really excited about.

Historically, I tend to be surprisingly productive when I lock myself up in a Starbucks blaring music through my headphones. I’ve achieved certifications, gotten jobs, made friends and all sorts of stuff…

This time, however… I don’t know. I think I’ve hit a road block.

I’ll explain.

So, recently, I had an idea for what I think would be a cool mobile app. But the more I research it and try to get all the information that I would need to make it come to light… it’s pretty daunting, actually.

I’ve drawn out a lot of what I think this app should look and feel like, and even went so far as to Photoshop up some mock interfaces for it.

I’ve begun reading books and listening to podcasts about startup businesses, app design, and all sorts of stuff. And at this point, it seems like this might never get off the ground.

But that’s just the pessimistic side of me coming out and pretending to be a realist (as if the world needs any more of that), I think.

So, what do I need to do right now?

Well, it seems like I’ll need to go about finishing what this thing is supposed to look like, and then maybe talk to a design firm and get a rough estimate on what it would cost to have them develop something that will be as intricate and easy to use as what I have in mind.

In the meantime, I guess I can also focus on doing a bit more market research, and see what real world interest in this thing might actually be, because I fear I’ve fallen into that whole stereotypical profile where I’m sure that this thing is revolutionary, and it’ll be the next big thing, and how could anyone not want in on it?

That’s dangerous.

It blinds you from the pitfalls and issues galore that lurk just beneath the shimmery surface of the ideal.

So I’m trying real hard to poke holes in my own idea, and it’s surprising how difficult it is to do so – except for about a handful of areas where I end up thinking “I’m sure I can just figure that little bit out later, it’s only 100% necessary to the idea working.”


See what I mean?

And after binge-watching Silicon Valley, all of the things I’d already said to myself and convinced myself of were hilariously parodied on the show, and I had to facepalm myself more than a couple of times, shamed at my level of basic bitchness.

Anyway, so that’s where I’m at right now. This idea came up about a week ago one evening, and after I was laying in bed ready to get some sleep… I couldn’t.

I got out of bed, went to Wal-Mart, and bought a sketching book, some colored pencils, a ruler and some pens. I went back home, and spent about four hours drawing out what I had in mind.

I think this should have made me feel better, but all it made me feel was more anxious to get this thing created.

I was I am so convinced this is such a good idea, I wonder why it hasn’t been done before, why someone isn’t doing it yet, but maybe they have and they already realized that it’s a terrible idea, or maybe it’s illegal, or just completely not feasible in absolutely any way, and may the heavens have mercy on whoever tries to make it happen…

This is what is constantly going through my head on the daily now.

I’ve run the idea by a small handful of people, and their response has been mostly positive, but of course they more than likely haven’t done the amount of research that I have into this field in the past week… but maybe that’s okay.

Maybe that’s exactly what I need.

I guess I’m just really hoping that this thing doesn’t end up being a dead end.

I hope that maybe it’ll be worthwhile.

Because if it works, I believe it would really, really help a lot of people.

But it’s scary, you know? Like, really scary. On a multitude of levels – emotionally, financially, mentally, technically…

But if there’s one mantra I’ve tried to apply more and more often in my life over the past few years, it’s this:

“It is okay to be scared. Just don’t let that stop you.”

Though, I do feel that this might just be the biggest thing I’ve done, if it gets done.

I hope I don’t let myself down.

And I hope people dig it, when it’s done.


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